You'd never know how i feel.

pushing everyone away for NO reason.

Did you guys know those feeling where you have so much to say, to let out but you just can't because you scared things will come out different way which will just screw up everything up and plus you feel like no one understands you and then you feel like giving up on things you didn't want to? I just want to remind you that, please be careful of who you open up to. Because only a few people who actually care, the rest are just curious.

Besides, I really want to get hurt right now. A car accident maybe, or anything. I want to get injured enough to wind up in a hospital, just to see if anyone would come to make sure I am okay. And i'd pretend to be sleeping or dying so in case anyone actually did come, they would sit at the edge of my bed, crying, and tell me everything. I want to hear everything they've ever thought of me, how they really feel, if they're sorry for anything. I just want to know the truth. And i want to know who truly cares about me. Because if that happened to ANY one of people around me, i know i'd be the first person by their bedside. Why? Because I love them, each of them.